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Looking for Billy & At the gym

by Chris Kinsey

[ poetry - october 05 ]

Looking for Billy

It came on suddenly
this blindness thing

like walking into the barn
on a Summer day -

split shafts, shadows,
shapes.

Thought he was mucking about
Hide 'n' seeking me.

Thought it was my eyes playing tricks
when I found him,

but it wasn't a feedbag
rocking from the rafters.

His father went to the War
brought back a darkness.

Billy caught too much of it.
Now the dark's in me.

Bits of me come back sometimes -

I'm going to look for Billy.

 

At the gym

I'm rowing like a galley slave.
Gina and Sue cycle;
going nowhere fast.
Instead we get a tour of tattoos:

”The Teletubbies are for the twins.
Eli chose the small heart.
I'm having Winnie The Pooh done for mum.
That's it then - no more room; so no more kids!”

Gina nods and pants.
Every time she pedals
a dolphin rides a billow of buttock
and plunges back.